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♥ September (Ohnir) Event Log

September (Ohnir) Event Log
The month of Ohnir brings with it a slow but steady relief from the heat, as summer gives way to autumn and the city begins to change with it. Plants are slowly deflowering, leaves are starting to fade and fall, and while the season is not yet in full swing, all the signs are there if you know where to look. The city is abuzz with new energy as the residents realize that for the first time in centuries, they have some actual nature clean-up ahead of them: raking leaves, pruning branches, protecting young wildlife and fresh plants from the incoming chills of winter. Such work used to be relegated to those who cared for the botanical gardens and zoos, but now everyone who's been enjoying this year's garden harvest has to learn how to future-proof their treasured flowers. Offworlders are encouraged to do the same, lest all of the growth be lost over the winter.
❥ PROMPT I: A Clean Getaway

With all of the work to be done, it's no surprise that some are looking for new ways to refresh themselves and relax, and what better time would there be to open up the Public Baths! All the volunteer work cleaning the place has paid off, and the facilities are officially open and available for use. It is technically free to use, as a public facility, but those visiting are encouraged to tithe a small donation once in a while to pay for upkeep and freshen up the place, provide new soaps, etc. No judgment if you can't! It'll just make everything that much nicer in the long run.
The baths are separated into a few sections: oil baths for the native residents, and water baths for the offworlders. For obvious reasons, offworlders are encouraged not to enter the robot-residential sections! Though they are not strictly forbidden... it would be quite messy and bad for your health.
The offworlder half has additional separated sections that may interest characters when they visit:
1) Hot Springs Style - Clothed or Unclothed: there are 3 available rooms for each, one for separate presented genders, and a shared bath for those comfortable with the concept or don't wish to use either male or female. Each room has one larger pool and a few smaller sets, so you can sit by yourself or with others as you please.
2) Pool: a shared public pool! The water is nice and cool, which should be a comfort to those still struggling with the lingering summer heat. There is some water game equipment available for open use if people want to play and get their sports on.
3) Sauna: similar to the springs, once again, there are 3 rooms for gender splits so everyone can enjoy the place at their own comfort level.
It all seems very nice and relaxing for everyone, but this wouldn't be a proper event without some shenanigans now, would it? There are a few effects that may occur within the baths, and these effects are somewhat random. Some characters may experience them to a powerful degree, while others feel nothing at all. Players can decide for themselves who and where these will affect, so feel free to mix, match, and go wild. The effects are:
The baths are separated into a few sections: oil baths for the native residents, and water baths for the offworlders. For obvious reasons, offworlders are encouraged not to enter the robot-residential sections! Though they are not strictly forbidden... it would be quite messy and bad for your health.
The offworlder half has additional separated sections that may interest characters when they visit:
1) Hot Springs Style - Clothed or Unclothed: there are 3 available rooms for each, one for separate presented genders, and a shared bath for those comfortable with the concept or don't wish to use either male or female. Each room has one larger pool and a few smaller sets, so you can sit by yourself or with others as you please.
2) Pool: a shared public pool! The water is nice and cool, which should be a comfort to those still struggling with the lingering summer heat. There is some water game equipment available for open use if people want to play and get their sports on.
3) Sauna: similar to the springs, once again, there are 3 rooms for gender splits so everyone can enjoy the place at their own comfort level.
It all seems very nice and relaxing for everyone, but this wouldn't be a proper event without some shenanigans now, would it? There are a few effects that may occur within the baths, and these effects are somewhat random. Some characters may experience them to a powerful degree, while others feel nothing at all. Players can decide for themselves who and where these will affect, so feel free to mix, match, and go wild. The effects are:
- The spring water is so relaxing that you feel free and more willing to talk about yourself, or share your feelings more openly.
- The swimming pool is cool and energizing, making you want to horse around and play with others nearby. You may also feel inclined to drape yourself onto others, like a cool, comfy pillow.
- The sauna has you dishing up spicy hot takes, releasing negative emotions or complaints, and makes you a little more inclined to gossip.
❥ PROMPT II: REM Stands for Realistic Emotional Memory in These Parts

Characters who were around last year might remember a bout of strange and sporadic dreams that plagued the town around this season, along with the sensation that they were being followed. This year, dreams once more enter uninvited to one's mind, but this time, it occurs as a random daydream while they are awake, and it is very different from person to person- instead encouraging you to do the following. All visions start out hazy, like a grainy old movie where details and figures are difficult to make out, but there is something both familiar and alien about it. It feels like a memory… but it is not your memory. Over time, the visual begins to clear the more often the dream repeats, until slowly the images grow more distinct, offering clearer faces, the addition of voices, discernable quotes or expressions. The memory will provide hints as to who it might belong to, though the subtlety of those hints will likely vary. Before too long, if you have not found a way to rid yourself of the dream, you will experience an entire memory of another person in town as if you were witnessing it from their perspective!
Now, how does one rid themselves of these strange visions? You could wait it out, if you're patient enough and not inclined to seek the answer, but those who've been here long enough can wager a guess: you must find the source of that memory and "send" it back to them through physical interaction of some kind. Some memories may take longer to transfer than others, and it may depend on the person, the memory itself, how clear the memory has become in the time you carried it… no two experiences are likely to be the same.
There are a few specifics about these memories that are worth noting:
Now, how does one rid themselves of these strange visions? You could wait it out, if you're patient enough and not inclined to seek the answer, but those who've been here long enough can wager a guess: you must find the source of that memory and "send" it back to them through physical interaction of some kind. Some memories may take longer to transfer than others, and it may depend on the person, the memory itself, how clear the memory has become in the time you carried it… no two experiences are likely to be the same.
There are a few specifics about these memories that are worth noting:
- the memory should be of a single event, not a series of events that span a long period of time. For example, you could witness the stretch of someone's day at a wedding or long party (sped up to skip insignificant moments so it doesn't play in real time), but not a memory of an entire war that goes for months. How long the memory goes for is up to the player that the memory belongs to, as long as it falls within these guidelines.
- you are not limited to a single memory from a single person. Once you have solved one vision, after a certain amount of time, you may find yourself plagued with another.
- you will not necessarily end up having the same memory partner! You won't always have the memory of the person who has your memory. Characters are encouraged to pair up and try to piece together clues that might lead you to your intended partner. Help each other out and guide one another in the right direction if you can.
- those whose memory has been borrowed may find it difficult to recall it; it can seem fuzzy and indistinct, missing entirely or simply missing choice details. Through physical contact, that memory will fully return to them and both participants can experience it together.
- you can find your partner accidentally! If you're still searching for clues and happen to touch your partner through other circumstances - such as shake their hand at first meeting, or hug a friend - you may find both of you are suddenly experiencing a memory together as it is transferred! Aren't you lucky, to have found your partner so easily?
❥ PROMPT III: I Shall Fight With My Bear Hands

Closer to the tail end of the month, one of the research facilities distributes a "Help Wanted" advertisement through the network, requesting the aid of offworlders. The advertisement reads:
"Calling all offworlders! Havenwell Research and Development is seeking volunteers for both physical prowess and supernatural ability testing. All are welcome! Even if you have no combat skills and feel only a desire to learn, we have a job for you. Those who already possess some form of self-defense or combative powers will be partnered and asked to "spar" in a partially digitized facility, or proceed with a simulation that will gauge destructive capabilities. And for those who possess neither, don't worry! Our program is specially designed to help you discover just where your talents lie.
No harm should come to any volunteers, as this is strictly simulation-based, similar to the virtual reality technology already widely used throughout the city. However, in case of any accidents, medical staff is on site to treat injuries as needed. Additionally, there is no need for you to wear any of the VR headgear typically required in our cafes, so if these devices cause you discomfort, this may be a simulation that better meets your needs.
Please contact us ASAP if you are willing and able to help. A monetary commission will be awarded upon completion of each session."
Any volunteers or inquiries will be provided with more information, and invited to one of the research towers located in town. They are guided to a floor that is abuzz with activity, partnered with whoever happens to be scheduled at the same time or a partner they themselves opted to bring with them, and taken to a room akin to Star Trek's holodeck. There, they can input "powers" or "no powers", and a simulation will be created for them based on their selected guidelines.
With Powers:
The console invites characters to select one of two options- their own abilities, or temporarily gain access to the elemental powers offered via AC Rewards (point levels 50, 100, and 200). They are able to choose a particular power level for the duration of the simulation, which can either dampen their natural abilities to a more fair level for the test you're undertaking, or remain normal. While in the simulation room, rather than actually using any real abilities, the room will materialize whatever ability you choose without causing true damage to either the room or your opponent. Science, or magic? It's probably both. Feel free to go wild and have fun, maybe try some powers you've never experienced before or vent your frustrations on being stuck here!
Without Powers:
The console invites characters to select a type of weapon and skill level, and said weapon will materialize in a basic form; while held inside the room it moves and feels real, but it cannot be removed from the facility. Those who are skilled in utilizing said weapon are free to wield it as if it were the genuine article in their chosen simulation. Those without much or any skill will be walked through a tutorial on basic techniques from a variety of styles, old or new, most unfamiliar but well suited to the body type of the person using the program. It's quite intuitive, though it is by no means perfect, so characters might end up being guided through a stranger workout than intended.
For versus mode, each participant has an HP bar displayed above their heads, and everyone has the same HP unless both players select an unbalanced mode, and the goal is to force your opponent to hit zero HP. Characters can also choose how realistic the simulated violence is and how the process feels: in low realism, it's similar to laser tag, where characters flash a colour when hit and take damage without feeling anything more than some uncomfortable vibration. In high realism, pain is genuine to a certain degree depending on how high a level they choose, though it is artificial and will fade as soon as the program ends. Hitting zero HP will not result in a knock-out, but characters will feel dizzy and be forced to sit down, unable to rise again until they surrender. All effects wear off as soon as the simulation ends.
For demonstration mode, participants are given a selection of virtual targets to practice on using whatever method of combat they've chosen. It could be moving targets, such as creatures that have invaded the barrier previously (via the Wild Wild prompt), or simulations of the more dangerous beasts in the museum/zoo areas of town. It could be simple targets built to take a beating without providing much challenge in return. It could be a collection of buildings that characters can break or explode as they please. This mode is designed to gauge just how strong a person's destructive potential is, either with their own powers or with powers granted to those who have been blessed by their patron god.
Characters are welcome to volunteer as many times as there are available partners and/or slots! So feel free to try a few times using different options.
"Calling all offworlders! Havenwell Research and Development is seeking volunteers for both physical prowess and supernatural ability testing. All are welcome! Even if you have no combat skills and feel only a desire to learn, we have a job for you. Those who already possess some form of self-defense or combative powers will be partnered and asked to "spar" in a partially digitized facility, or proceed with a simulation that will gauge destructive capabilities. And for those who possess neither, don't worry! Our program is specially designed to help you discover just where your talents lie.
No harm should come to any volunteers, as this is strictly simulation-based, similar to the virtual reality technology already widely used throughout the city. However, in case of any accidents, medical staff is on site to treat injuries as needed. Additionally, there is no need for you to wear any of the VR headgear typically required in our cafes, so if these devices cause you discomfort, this may be a simulation that better meets your needs.
Please contact us ASAP if you are willing and able to help. A monetary commission will be awarded upon completion of each session."
Any volunteers or inquiries will be provided with more information, and invited to one of the research towers located in town. They are guided to a floor that is abuzz with activity, partnered with whoever happens to be scheduled at the same time or a partner they themselves opted to bring with them, and taken to a room akin to Star Trek's holodeck. There, they can input "powers" or "no powers", and a simulation will be created for them based on their selected guidelines.
With Powers:
The console invites characters to select one of two options- their own abilities, or temporarily gain access to the elemental powers offered via AC Rewards (point levels 50, 100, and 200). They are able to choose a particular power level for the duration of the simulation, which can either dampen their natural abilities to a more fair level for the test you're undertaking, or remain normal. While in the simulation room, rather than actually using any real abilities, the room will materialize whatever ability you choose without causing true damage to either the room or your opponent. Science, or magic? It's probably both. Feel free to go wild and have fun, maybe try some powers you've never experienced before or vent your frustrations on being stuck here!
Without Powers:
The console invites characters to select a type of weapon and skill level, and said weapon will materialize in a basic form; while held inside the room it moves and feels real, but it cannot be removed from the facility. Those who are skilled in utilizing said weapon are free to wield it as if it were the genuine article in their chosen simulation. Those without much or any skill will be walked through a tutorial on basic techniques from a variety of styles, old or new, most unfamiliar but well suited to the body type of the person using the program. It's quite intuitive, though it is by no means perfect, so characters might end up being guided through a stranger workout than intended.
For versus mode, each participant has an HP bar displayed above their heads, and everyone has the same HP unless both players select an unbalanced mode, and the goal is to force your opponent to hit zero HP. Characters can also choose how realistic the simulated violence is and how the process feels: in low realism, it's similar to laser tag, where characters flash a colour when hit and take damage without feeling anything more than some uncomfortable vibration. In high realism, pain is genuine to a certain degree depending on how high a level they choose, though it is artificial and will fade as soon as the program ends. Hitting zero HP will not result in a knock-out, but characters will feel dizzy and be forced to sit down, unable to rise again until they surrender. All effects wear off as soon as the simulation ends.
For demonstration mode, participants are given a selection of virtual targets to practice on using whatever method of combat they've chosen. It could be moving targets, such as creatures that have invaded the barrier previously (via the Wild Wild prompt), or simulations of the more dangerous beasts in the museum/zoo areas of town. It could be simple targets built to take a beating without providing much challenge in return. It could be a collection of buildings that characters can break or explode as they please. This mode is designed to gauge just how strong a person's destructive potential is, either with their own powers or with powers granted to those who have been blessed by their patron god.
Characters are welcome to volunteer as many times as there are available partners and/or slots! So feel free to try a few times using different options.
❥ PROMPT IV: A Bonus Trip Down Memory Lane
Last year, some offworlders might remember the tradition of sharing stories in the temple of Ohma, to offer small tributes to the god on their first month of devotion. It is that time of the year again, and everyone is welcome to return and share more stories, or perhaps retell an old favourite to a new audience. Here is the event as described previously:
Ohma's temple is particularly lively during Ohnir and the priests are busy cleaning and sweeping, decorating it with rolls of parchment and digital inkwells and quills that write as if they were actually fountain pens. The natives, especially adherents of Ohma, start to make pilgrimages to the temple in little processions, some playing music, others flying banners.
Anyone who chooses to follow can observe the natives going up to the altar and sharing stories with one another. They talk about things they did over the past year or things that are far, far in their past. Some of the stories are happy and result in the procession laughing and some are...well, not everyone returns safely from certain disasters that befall the city throughout the year. The priests diligently write every story down on those parchment rolls and deposit them onto the waiting altar, where they're summarily lit on fire to the cheers of those present. The more emotional the story it seems, the brighter and bluer the flame that it emits and the louder the procession cheers.
As the file out, they notice you watching and urge you to go up with someone else in the temple to clear your heart and offer up your own stories. They can be stories of home, information about your worlds, or stories about your life.
Ohma's temple is particularly lively during Ohnir and the priests are busy cleaning and sweeping, decorating it with rolls of parchment and digital inkwells and quills that write as if they were actually fountain pens. The natives, especially adherents of Ohma, start to make pilgrimages to the temple in little processions, some playing music, others flying banners.
Anyone who chooses to follow can observe the natives going up to the altar and sharing stories with one another. They talk about things they did over the past year or things that are far, far in their past. Some of the stories are happy and result in the procession laughing and some are...well, not everyone returns safely from certain disasters that befall the city throughout the year. The priests diligently write every story down on those parchment rolls and deposit them onto the waiting altar, where they're summarily lit on fire to the cheers of those present. The more emotional the story it seems, the brighter and bluer the flame that it emits and the louder the procession cheers.
As the file out, they notice you watching and urge you to go up with someone else in the temple to clear your heart and offer up your own stories. They can be stories of home, information about your worlds, or stories about your life.
This event will run from September 14th to 30th. Click on each prompt's title to see the text. If you have any questions, feel free to direct them to the FAQ or to the Mod Question thread.
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He hadn't anticipated that he'd ever know the answer, let alone know it so immediately. He also was not quite sure what he'd heard (he knew exactly what he'd heard) or if that was something that had truly meant to be said (he... wasn't sure on that part).
It was so easy to--
Everything was still for a moment. Kai didn't trust himself to say anything. He didn't trust himself to think anything. Gingerly, he lifted his head so he could look down at the boy nestled against him. There was only more curious wonder there, a question that he wasn't even sure he was aware of.
There was a small squeeze of his hand, that link still firm and sure despite the sudden swirl of everything. Don't go.
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Just a moment, though, because there's only so much time between Shinji letting that thought escape and the realization that, hey, you just, uh, you just said the in-your-head thing out loud. Suddenly all of that quietness and stillness comes to a crashing stop on Shinji's end as everything starts to catch up and his heart begins absolutely racing. He hadn't meant to say that, why did he say that?
He brings his free hand up to cover his mouth, as if that's somehow going to take those words back, or stop more from slipping out, or... something. He doesn't know what, but something. It's sure not going to make him less suspicious, at any rate, but he's also not tying to worm his way out of the situation, no matter how many different scenarios on how to do exactly this might be running through his head at the moment.
He's not sure he trusts himself to say anything at the moment either, but he keeps his hold on Kai's hand nice and tight as well. Don't you go anywhere either, please.
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What would it mean if he hadn't?
... What would it mean if he had?
Kai really didn't know. He didn't know why his chest suddenly felt so full, or why his heart felt in his throat. It seemed like his ears were full of cotton if he dared to look anywhere but at Shinji, who seemed to be the only thing moving in real time here. That was probably why Kai had reached up with his free hand, reaching out towards the only source of clarity in his immediate vicinity.
The motion was a bit clumsy as Kai's fingers skirted over Shinji's hand. He was trying to find his way to Shinji's cheek, to carefully turn his face towards him. Maybe, he thought, it would make more sense if Kai could see him.
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"I'm sorry," he offers quickly, his hand only moving away enough to make sure the apology is heard nice and clear despite how tight his throat suddenly feels. "I didn't... mean to say that out loud."
Another very honest statement which, for what it's worth, is a confirmation that it should have stayed right in his head, but isn't a thought that would have been out of place just staying quietly within those confines.
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Or maybe that was the flicker of hurt that came with the idea that this was something to warrant an apology. Why did it need an apology. He wasn't in a position to know the reasons behind that regret, which meant the default conclusion was that he was the problem as per usual. That thought made his stomach twist just as much as those initial words had sparked something thunderous in his heart.
When Kai finally spoke up again, it was far more hushed than he anticipated. "...But you meant it?"
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He drops his focus back down to their hands, his own still holding on so tightly. "... I mean it," he replies, softly, sincerely. He had meant it then, and he's not going to take it back now. "I do, I really... really do."
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But he'd still said he was sorry. The uncertainty that came with that brought along an ache as well.
Kai leaned his head back down, gently thudding the sides of their foreheads together as Shinji looked down at their hands. Have another stroke of his thumb then, slow and careful and there.
"Was it going to stay a secret?"
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He doesn't pick his gaze back up, but he does lower his hand away from his mouth by just a bit as he slowly, carefully picks out his words.
"I don't... want to ruin our friendship. It means more to me than anything, so... I never wanted to put those kinds of expectations on you."
Because there sure are some lofty expectations attached to those words, aren't there?
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...It was alarming how much his heart was racing and how much like this didn't feel like a bad thing. Like maybe some pieces were finally starting to find their places. Feelings he still couldn't fully grasp. How strongly Kai wanted to see him sometimes. Idle thoughts of pressing small affections against Shinji's hair.
"I don't think you're putting them on me now either," Kai said after a moment. "Or maybe it just... doesn't feel like something I can't handle. I wouldn't want to lose you."
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Ah, no, he has actually made a point to mention how he really does hate himself to Kai before, hasn't he? And Kai would still hate to lose him, even knowing that. It's not... the same, he doesn't think, as returning those feelings, so maybe that's... okay? He's not sure. He knew there was no way this wouldn't get complicated and messy if he let his feelings come out like that, so he's not exactly prepared to deal with the fallout now that they've managed to slip past his defenses.
Softly, "I'm... not going anywhere," he can assure that much, no matter how loud the part of him that would like nothing more than to just run off right now might be. His selfishness to hold on to those assurances as tightly as possible is a lot stronger in the moment.
"You don't have to feel the same, you can even forget I said it, if you want. That would be fine! But... I won't go anywhere, if you don't want me to."
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"I don't want you to," he blurted in a rush, barely after Shinji had even finished. He licked his lips, swallowing now that he had bought a singular moment. "I don't want to forget it."
He just didn't deserve it. Yet he didn't want to let go of it either? He wanted to cling on to it for all that it was worth.
"I, uh... I just..." He just what. Kai leaned a little more heavily against Shinji, turning his face more fully against the softness of his hair.
"Shinji, I'm a moron."
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He takes the moment to try and force himself to relax a little bit, letting his grip loosen up from a tight hold to an easier, but still persistent one. This... is a survivable situation. Even if he ends up getting hurt, if Kai still wants him around after the dust settles, then that... is a better outcome then he would have expected after letting his guard drop as much as it has. This is fine. As long as he's not unwanted, this can still be salvaged.
He exhales softly at that last thought, not quite a huff or a sigh, but a tiny acknowledgement of what he said. Shinji's pretty sure that he's the truly stupid one here, but what he comes up with to say to that claim is, "It's not like you've done anything wrong."
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The lack of actual argument here was noted and appreciated. "That doesn't mean I'm not one," Kai huffed. Maybe they both knew it, but it felt important to put it back at the forefront of the conversation. It was important to understand just how much of an idiot he was so it made sense that he was fumbling so hard with trying to express things he'd never had a reason to confront or took time to comprehend.
He probably could have used some time right now, but it felt like if he didn't say something now then Shinji was just going to slip through his fingers.
"I... just want you to be able to be happy," he murmured, forcing himself to let the words slip before he could get trapped in considering them. It wasn't that hard, considering both his nature and the hot springs, but the lump in his throat still felt difficult to work around. "And I always thought, y'know... you'd find someone better for that."
Softer still. "Could never figure out why that hurt so much."
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But, no, no, the only one of them who's done anything wrong is definitely Shinji. Especially if the implications of what Kai's laying down here, it's... really hard not to think that he's done something dishonest or unintentionally underhanded to make him feel that way. He'd said before that there wasn't anyone he was interested in, so how long could that hurt feeling reasonably have been an issue?
'I'm a moron,' he had said, though. Maybe it had, actually, been going on for a while. And he just didn't realize. That's not an unfamiliar feeling, even if having it turned back at him like this feels incredibly... wrong.
"If anyone deserves to find someone better, it's you," he mumbles. "You've always been really good to me, more than I deserve."
Which is a hard thought to shake in particular right now, that maybe it's just Kai's own nature of trying to do right by Shinji. But, on the other hand, wouldn't that be kind of a far length to go to just to placate him? M.... maybe. Maybe.
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"I don't want anyone better," Kai said as he lifted his head. He was pulling back just enough that Shinji could hear him loud and clear with no muffles here. "Not when the happiest I've ever been has been with you."
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You can't just say that!! Those are the kinds of things that squeeze at his heart, and that kind of sincerity is too hard to just dismiss. How is he supposed to double down on his stance when something like that topples his resolve so thoroughly?
"Kai..." He knows he doesn't deserve those exceptionally warm words sent his way, and he knows that Kai deserves to be with someone who does. It puts him away a weird crossroads, where he wants to be more mindful of Kai's feelings, so he really should be with someone better, but shouldn't he also be mindful of what Kai himself actually wants? Even if it is, for some reason he really can't grasp, Shinji?
More than anything, though, he's not sure he has it in himself to let go of those words now that he's caught them. For a couple of seconds, all he can really do is regard them with a silent moment of awe.
"Me too," he answers, a quiet admission, but he does his best to make sure it's a clear one. He lets his hand finally drop away from his face completely, bringing it down to rest along side his other one, carefully holding on to Kai's. "Getting to see you happy, and being able to help make you happy... it feels like the best thing I've ever done."
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It had just tumbled out there like so many other things during this bath. Kai couldn't find any reason to try and follow those words up with everything different though. In what world would he turn away from the only person that ever wanted him, when he was so selfish himself? It wouldn't have made any sense, even if he was a moron.
He glanced down at their hands, biting his lip before continuing on his hushed tones. "'Cause... it's the same, y'know? What I want for you. So I might.... I mean, I don't. Um. I don't know what else it is I feel when I'm with you, but..."
Ignoring how poorly he felt this was going, Kai lifted his gaze to give Shinji a small, wobbly smile. "I'd want to figure it out."
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The very earnest request is met with a squeeze from Shinji's hands, a ripple of the warmth that fills his heart at the words. Even if this entire thing has been rocky and messy, a completely unforeseen confession, he absolutely can't deny that hearing those uncertain yet sincere sentiments simply reaffirms why Shinji felt this way in the first place.
He's a greedy idiot, and nothing makes his heart flutter more than seeing such a charming and rare expression on Kai's face. Ahhh, he really can be cute...
"Take whatever time you need," they have nothing but time here, right...? If you ignore the possibility of one of them vanishing before the other, anyway, but that's definitely too heavy of a factor to be thinking about right now. A tiny, shaky smile bubbles up in response to Kai's, and his cheeks warm up in a noticeable blush. "I won't go anywhere, I'll be right here for whatever you need me for."
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There was... probably definitely something to that. Giving it a name felt daunting at this point, but it felt right at home with that sweet smile Shinji was shining at him.
He nodded earnestly. And then he nodded a few more times, because he was working himself up to something. "Could... Could I try something?"
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He's not sure his heart could handle thinking about what would happen if he does, it feels like far too much to hope for, even in light of Kai's own realizations. For now, he'll keep those expectations as low as he can.
But, oh? What's this? Another request?
"Ah...? Sure?"
What? Do you want to do?
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This, somehow, wasn't even a new idea. But Kai hadn't put a lot of thought to it whenever it floated by him. It had just kind of been there, a casual little 'what if.'
For example, what if he lifted that still free hand of his to gently brush some of Shinji's bangs across his forehead. What if, perhaps, he traced his fingertips across his cheek. The most daring what if of all, of course, would be if Kai leaned in to press a chaste kiss to Shinji's brow.
What if, actually, all these things just happened.
(They did.)
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Luckily for him, he does not have to imagine any of that
because it just kind of happens.
And for all he lets the initial little touches happen without any resistance, the kiss is met with a sharp, tiny inhale of a gasp that escapes quickly after as a soft, "Oh-!" That... was not what he was expecting. He didn't know what to expect, actually, but it sure hadn't been that!
"That..." that was...! He's not really sure what to say, though the squeeze to Kai's hand and the blush deepening on his own cheeks probably says a lot on its own. At a loss for words, he just sort of... nods. That was... yes. Okay. Good.
Yes.
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As suspected, that had been an extremely easy motion to carry through on! Maybe even dangerously easy! It hadn't even felt weird at all! Just kinda nice and pleasing in the same way that ruffling Shinji's hair felt nice under his hand. And wouldn't you know, it even came with its own positive feedback sounds of surprise.
Kai pulled back just enough to see what kind of face the other boy was making, that little wobbly smile of his spreading just a bit wider. Nice.
"Been thinking about trying that sometimes."
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"You... have been?"
What? What?? Since when? He doesn't dare actually ask, because that's... a lot! That's way too much for him to speculate on!! He might actually die!
"It was, ah, it was really nice," he adds, his voice dropping back down to a sheepish mumble.
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"Yeah," he mumbled back in a sheepish tone of his own. "So, I'm glad it was nice, 'cuz I thought so too."
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