No, Kai thought to himself. If there was a chance of it, and they had to leave, Shinji had to follow her. Kai was pretty sure that Shinji preferred Havenwell for the same reasons Kai did-- they were getting their second chances, trying to make something when they had nothing waiting for them where they came from. Even if Kai had no reason to call his own Japan home, at least... at least it existed. If something happened and only one of them could go, if they could go at all, well... He knew what he had to work towards.

But those were thoughts to be more closely examined later, when he wasn't consumed by the jolt that struck him. No, he thought again as he whispered it against her shoulder. "Don't," he said a fraction louder, "don't ask me to do that."